I had a rather stressful day yesterday! I am a member of the local Junior Auxiliary Chapter. Junior Auxiliary is a national non-profit organization that encourages members to render charitable services which are beneficial to the general public, with particular emphasis on children! It is a beautiful program that I feel very privileged to be a part of. Saying that there are times when it requires a LOT of my time. For me and one of the committees that I am involved in (actually Chair) that CRAZY time is NOW! Which really is not a “good” time (if there really is such a thing) with family, FINALS, kids activities, FINALS, church, FINALS, I think you get the picture.
Well back to my yesterday. I was up way before the sun preparing for a committee meeting, getting all my materials together, dressing, make-up, hair, kids up, kids dressed, baby up, breakfast…ALL before 7:30 AM! I was what some may call a SPAZ-OID! Actually some do call…my hubby to be exact! See I really don’t deal with all that stress too well. I begin to shut-down mentally! I yell! I shouldn’t! It is inevitable that when I have to be on a schedule that my children seem to be “schedule-less” is this God teaching me patience? I get so caught up in “I HAVE SO MUCH TO DO!” Do you know what I mean? Am I the only one?
The way I “handle” the situations really is unnecessary I realize that when I am “sane”, but when I am blinded by my schedule I am a spaz! All I can focus on is NOW! I always end up having to apologize to my family, especially Billy! He is so good to me all the time but he is especially good to me when I am CRAZY! He follows me around, doing for me, helping me anyway that I will “allow” him to! He tries to talk to me and help me to re-gain consciousness, but this usually does not happen. Then I am hateful to him, MY VERY BEST FRIEND. How awful is that?
See I saw a sign yesterday that was intended to be funny but rang so true to me it read “What if the Hokey-Pokey is really what it’s ALL ABOUT”
You may be saying “WHAT?” But, yeah, it was profound to me! The now, the crazy schedule, the deadlines, they aren’t WHAT IT’S ALL ABOUT! If I alienate everyone that I care about to get things done then what have I accomplished? It, being life is bigger than now! I want to be productive, don’t get me wrong, but at what cost?
So, I am making a resolution, in April instead of January, to CALM DOWN! I want to be proud of my day at its end and not have moments of temporary insanity to apologize for! I am reminded of Mark 8:36 “What benefit will it be to you if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul?” Help me Lord.
Friday, April 11, 2008
Hokey pokey
Posted by One Salty Gal.... at 11:55 AM
Labels: Faith, Salty Knowledge
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2 comments:
I am so feeling your pain!! I read this little saying the other day that stopped my thoughts in their scattered tracks..."I wish i had enjoyed the doing a little more and the getting it done a little less." man, was that a wake up call! Preach on sister, preach on!
I know exactly what you mean. At my last job, I was involved in so many community coalitions that sometimes I'd forget if I was in Anadarko or Altus! I couldn't have imagined doing it with 3 kids. That's one of the very reasons I've decided to have only one--because I'd be a perpetual spaz-oid if I had more than one! You're a strong woman, WOMAN!
I really like the scripture that you put up on this one. It's very in-line with Buddhist teachings I've been studying lately. The Dalai Lama asks(paraphrased) what good are riches and power if you don't use them to do good deeds? I'm going through this now with a friend who is being tempted to go to work for an EVIL corporation, and so far she's held out. I feel blessed to know people who realize that it's not about money, possessions, or power but about whether you're able to look at yourself in the mirror.
And P.S. I may be a little late, but GOOD LUCK W/ FINALS!!!
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